it's officially been 2 years

Today, 2 years ago, I went vegetarian and never looked back. And now here I am thinking about going vegan. go me

Happiness is having my own place

I'm completely in my own place. It feels so incredible to not have to listen to video games or fits. My friend Dan called me while I was still moving and said he was amazed by the change in me. He could literally hear how much I had mellowed. It's not just other people noticing. I FEEL better. It's being able to leave my writing out and not having to worry about people eating my food. Not having to hear screaming fits or deal with other people's kids. My parents came to help me move and they were wonderful. I'm not sure how I would have gotten my bed moved without them. They are the only ones in my family that have seen my apartment (my brother lives in NM). it sucks that my sister lives in the same complex and seems to have no desire to see my apartment. I'm not going to worry about it though. If she doesn't want anything to do with me, that's fine. I can't beat my head against a wall where she is concerned. This apartment is going to be my fresh start. I'm gaining a new perspective on my life. Sure I don't have a lot right now, but I'm happier and saner. That's worth more than anything to me right now

I love my parents

I'm in my new place. have stuff to cook on and with. a bed, lamps, vacuum, and a computer. my desktop G4...has wireless capabilities. so even though they haven't installed my cable yet, I'm surfin from the complex's wifi. I won't be missing out on anything! Now I just have to re-download about 6,000 songs to my iTunes library

I don't have a catchy title for this post

I haven't had a real date in 11 years. Sad I know. I've never been good at judging guys and so my dates are always something that I have to pay for. Literally. I can't remember the last time a guy took me out, bought me dinner and we did something and there wasn't sex or at least making out expected and involved. So i stopped trying. I stopped giving a damn. So my loneliness is my own damn fault. I think I may try dating again. I know that I'll suck at it, but I need to do something. I'm lonely and I don't like it. anyway. I may be MIA for a while. Moving and no internet until the 28th in the new place. I'll try to check on stuff in the apt office. You guys are awesome

oy my life

Had a really bad weekend workwise. Just terrible. I was ready to just up and cry. So I go to get my keys......and they hadn't taken the vendor locks off yet. I laughed. so tomorrow after work I actually get to see my apartment!

Things I can do in my new apartment

I am not going to be able to sleep tonight. Tomorrow is the day I get my keys. (I know you guys will be excited when I don't post about the damn apartment.) But I just realized how green I can go by having my own place. No more getting laughed at for recycling. No more getting laughed at for wanting cloth napkins. I can finally have an herb garden out on the balcony. I am so excited. You guys can expect tons of pictures when I get the internet at my place....and my new computer

big girls don't cry

at least not in public of they can help it. Yesterday was a shit day. I fell first thing in the morning, so my arm and hip are all bruised up. I get to work and the store is trashed. Then my corporate guy walks in. I wanted to cry. It was not a pretty visit and bossman and I are not happy. Good thing though was that 3 of our regulars came in and noticed that I was off. They proceeded to walk up to corporate guy and tell him how awesome I am and how they love coming back because I actually care about them and I take an interest in their lives. Good to know that my attempts at faking it are working. now if that praise could be converted to extra money I'd be good. Keys on Sunday and then I start taking little stuff over. Mommy and Daddy come that next weekend and then I'll be in my own place